Archive for September, 2007

Overwhelmed

As the 1st semester draws to a close, everyone just gets so busy. My planner is so full of commitments that instead of helping me finish whatever it is that I have to finish, it makes me feel so dizzy that I end up reading my Harry Potter book to de-stress, instead.

I know that it is my fault and that I couldn’t blame anyone if ever I breakdown from all the things that I have to do. I’m not complainig here. In fact, I don’t have a right to complain. I put myself in this situation because I love what I’m doing. What really annoys me is that I just can’t wake up at 7am. Even if I do, I tend to sleep in class in front of my teacher. What am I going to do? I can’t afford to have another “de-stressing” session because time is running fast. I can’t keep up with it. Help!

Rant

This is going to be just plain ranting. I need to de-stress myself before starting on my Com21 homework. Okay. So my ranting time starts now…

What have I been doing for the whole afternoon? Doing my BC25 stuff. I’m drained. No. Wait. I shouldn’t be drained. Kuya Noel did all the work this afternoon. I guess thinking about something too much (particularly something that has a deadline) makes one drained. All my creative juices are squeezed out of my head because of all the formal stuff that BC25 requires (wordiness is a no-no). I feel so…uninspired.

My only source of inspiration at the moment is my copy of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows which I won’t be having much time to read. Waaaaaaaah!! I’m getting at the good chapters. No. Let me restate that. Every chapter is a good one. That’s why I am so eager to read it. I woke up early for the past two days just to read Harry Potter 7 with a cup of hot coffee and enjoy the cool mornings we’ve been having these past few days. Reading Harry Potter 7 is…heaven. I feel like I am drinking the yummiest coffee in the whole wide world everytime I read it. But I want to take my time and savor every word, sentence, paragraph, chapter, in short, the whole book! I want to savor the giddiness I feel because this will be the last time that I will feel giddy over a Harry Potter book. All the waiting is over. No more Harry Potter book to wait for. No more eagerness in reading the whole Harry Potter book. I’ve read almost everything. =(
Even though I have waited for the seventh book ever since the I finished reading the sixth book (which was two years ago, I guess), I feel really sad that the series has ended.

Anyway, have to stop this. I still have tons of homework waiting for me and a Filipino13 exam to study for. Harry Potter can wait. But I think I’ll wake up early again tomorrow and read a chapter with a cup of hot coffee. =) Just something to wake me up in time for my 7am class.

Baghdad’s intellectual core suffered, too

An article from the new York Times really caught my eye. Normally, I wouldn’t read stuff about Baghdad anymore because I feel sick and tired of the war. But this is a new angle. It wasn’t about the American soldiers anymore or about the hundred’s of Iraqis dying. This one is about the death of the Mutanabi Street market which was the source of joy of Baghdad’s intelligentsia.

Mr. Ismail turned and faced the street. “Books, books: five books for 1,000 dinars, one for 250,” he shouted, his voice thick as a tenor’s, from his years of studying acting. “Come on, come on, those who are hungry for literature!”

Exactly 15 men looked on.

    I cannot imagine how life for these men had been for the past year when a daytime curfew was imposed for almost a year. Mutanabi is the capital’s 1,000-year-old intellectual core and that day, which was a Friday, people celebrated the market’s potential revival.
    A bombing on March 5 sealed this beautiful business and it hasn’t been opened until now.
    Despite people dying because of the war, the booksellers are slowly testing their freedom by opening their beloved bookshops for business.
Here is the paragraph that really tugged at my heart strings:

Books, on the other hand, brought reliable joy. Mr. Ismail picked up a black hardcover history of the Kurds, with an attractive photo on the front. Tapping it twice with his right hand, sending dust flying, he kissed the cover and said, “We are happy to be here again with these beautiful books.”

   Imagine the solace and comfort these books are giving to people like Mr. Ismail who have been haunted by the horrors war have brought to Iraq.

Here is a poem written by Ibn Al-Utri:

Baghdad in the ninth century, after rampaging armies destroyed the city in a dispute involving caliphate succession.

“Who invaded you, Baghdad?” Mr. Shatry said, his voice rising for the performance.

Weren’t you once as dear to me as my eye?

Wasn’t there a time when people lived within you, when being neighbors was a blessing?

Then the crow came and divided them. How much grief can you endure?

I swear by God, there are people lost who, whenever I remember them, my eyes start flowing with tears.
I am glad that the comfort I have always found in reading books have reached even war-torn Iraq. That despite the terrors war have brought upon them, they haven’t forgotten the beauty and warmth of books. =)

To conform or not to conform?

Conformity is meeting the standards of society or what people would call “normal” or “acceptable”. Conforming to such “standards” doesn’t come from society as a whole. This can be watered down to family, friends, and what-not.

Then there is the basic human need to belong. And to belong to a certain group usually means that you have to meet their standards and be a bit like them. You have to do what they expect you to do. If you won’t, prepare for conflicts and feeling left out.

The questions here are: do we really have to conform to their standards? Do we have to do whatever it is that they want us to do in order to be accepted? Are they usually correct?

When we talk about conformity in this century, I believe that there is no such thing. We are diverse and every individual is unique and different which is what makes this world interesting and it’s the fuel that keeps this world going.

What irks me about this whole conforming thing or what is also known as “let’s-go-with-the-flow-in-order-to-avoid-conflict” thing, is that you have to be molded in a different “dough shaper”, something that is not meant for you, just to belong with the other “cookies”. When in fact, there’s another dough shaper that is so perfect for you and if you go for who you really are, you can be the best that you can be. That means, no more mediocre cookies (I’m referring to people) in this world!

Bottomline is, just be yourself. Don’t care about what other people think. If they are real people (or real friends), they’ll understand you and support you. If they’re not, then this is a challenge. Face it head on. It will improve you in the long run. And the blabbermouths? Well, they’ll wear out. Besides, you’re not doing this for them. You’re working hard and it’s all for God, right?

P.S. You know who you are. =)

Lesser Evil

One question. Which one would you choose? Mediocrity or failure? hmmm……. If you’d ask me I’d choose mediocrity than fail. =/

I got to read an article in an old issue of Newsweek last Saturday. It was an article about Maria Celeste Arraras, a broadcast journalist. She’s successful right now and all that. You know what’s amazing about the way her dad treated mediocrity? It’s like this…

She brought home a grade of C in some test or whatever. then her dad talked to her and said, “In this household, you have to either be the best of the best or the best of the worst. But never mediocre.”

If you ask me, a C is fine. In fact, it’s a-okay. At least I didn’t fail. But I think the real meat in that principle is that you have no other way to go but up. Succeed. Because if you don’t, you fail.

So always do your best in everything you do and never settle for mediocrity. Because the problem that is so prevalent in today’s world (especially the academe) is mediocrity. Mediocre papers, mediocre homework, mediocre performance, everything mediocre. It’s like some people don’t see the value of hard work. And another cause of mediocrity in the academe would be the fact that some students don’t get to study what they want to study. It’s not bringing out the best in them.

Oh, and the main reason why some people don’t see the value of hard work and settle for mediocrity is the fact that they don’t really work for a better cause. It’s like, okay, I’m studying right now so I can get a better and secured future. Okay, I’m working because i need money for the family and what-not. But isn’t there a higher purpose for our hard work? And isn’t that purpose God? We’re working for Him. We’re using the talents He has given us and we get the strength to go the extra mile from Him and the passions He gave us. Shouldn’t we put these gifts into good use and strive for excellence?

So, which is the lesser evil? Is it going for mediocrity as long as we don’t fail? Or strive hard to succeed but when we do fail, accept that fact wholeheartedly? I’m letting you decide.

For the love of words

The Dead Poets Society. It’s the best movie I have ever seen. It’s very inspiring and uplifting especially to a student like me. The movie taught me to seize the day…carpe diem.

Whenever I hear “carpe diem”, the first thing that comes to my mind are those colorful autograph books I used to sign back in elementary and high school. Carpe diem was so different from the usual “golden rule” my classmates would write for their motto. Besides, admit it. Carpe diem sounds way cooler. ;p

Anyway, I knew what carpe diem meant. It meant to “seize the day”. But it was just that to me. Seize the day and I was still my usual shy self and totally backboneless. Really. That is, until I saw the movie.

I’m not going to say here that the movie changed me big time. But the movie changed my perspective on life. It made me realize that we don’t have forever to do whatever it is that we should do. Our time is limited and we don’t know what’s going to happen tomorrow.

Also, the movie tackled the issue on passion. Mr. Keating, played by Robin Williams, is the english teacher at a strict all-boys boarding school. He was not the usual Engish teacher who would make his students read countless poems and discuss about them and bore the students to death. Actually, I’d like to have a teacher who’s just like Mr. Keating. He teaches the students to love the subject in its truest sense and not take it for granted even though it’s not related in any way to medicine or business or whatever.

For him, poetry is not just the measuring of poems according to its meter and stanzas and word count and it’s not even about rhyming. It’s being tuned to the human emotion. And it’s human emotion that makes poetry so useful to everyone and it’s the main ingredient that makes it so beautiful. It talks about the nature of humans.

And the Dead Poets Society? It’s a group of students who meet up in a cave once a week and take turns reading poems and just let the words and emotions drip from their tongues and let the magic of the moment consume them. I haven’t heard anyone describe their passions as effectively as Mr. Keating did. He was so passionate about it that a group of boys became the revived Dead Poets Society and loved the poems as they are. Now, isn’t that beautiful? =)

Some inspiring stuff from the movie… =)

To be read at the start of a meeting:

“I went to the woods because I wanted to live deep and seek out all the marrow of life! To put to rest all that was not life. And not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived.”

– Dead Poets Society

We don’t read and write poetry because it’s cute. we read and write poetry because we are humans. And there is passion.

Only in dreams humans are truly free.”

–Mr. Keating